Ok how much worse can it get

(I had accidentally saved this post before, instead of publishing it.)

So another day goes by with NOTHING happening. I can't tell you how stressful and disappointing it is go in there, morning after morning, and hear such loud silence, and see everything in such an unfinished state. It looks sick inside, and I get sick every time I see it.

So, as it stands now, it's still not done, and there are 30 days left for my mortgage rate lock. I can't extend it any further, and realistically can't justify hanging on if my rate is going to go up, which I know it is.

If my atty files suit this week, then I end up having to go to court, paying all kinds of fees, legal and otherwise, losing vacation time, and not being able to go to Vegas to celebrate my 30th b-day with my friends. This project has made me put so many things on hold, and it's going to keep doing that. As it is I had planned to take a couple of days off to move in, do the work I had to do, etc. Now with Vegas coming up so close, I wont be able to take the time to do both. What's even worse is that while I'd rather be in Las Vegas than dealing with all this crap, I HAVE to be here to deal with all this crap. I have almost $350k on the line now, I just can't walk away from that.

Vegas is exactly what I need right now too, a little break from reality. A land where an Egypitan pyramid is up the street from the Tower Campanelle, which is across the street from Hawaii would do me some good. Miami was fun, but Miami is a real place--Vegas is not. :)

I often wonder what my life would be like now, if I had taken one of the places I saw in Salem. True they needed serious work, but I would have lived there already & done the work myself. It'd be long done by now. Haha, some of those places were so nasty. I remember one night the realtor even told me we should go. The rug had this unexplainable GIANT black stain the middle of the floor. It's Salem. Who knows what sorta freaky satanic thing took place there.

I'm rambling. I'll stop now.


Sigh.